A part of me regrets joining Tumblr.
Up until now my mom and I were really close and I told her everything, but now I’m afraid to tell her anything. Being on this site has really opened my mind to what is going on in the world and helped me understand that the “flaws” in myself are not flaws at all, but parts of my personality that don’t need to be fixed. I have found things I believe in, things I want to fight for, and now I know who I am and who I want to become. I am a complete person.
But the complete person I have found, doesn’t match my mother’s vision. When I try to tell her my beliefs or share my new understanding of the world she denies me, she can’t accept that a website can do what doctors, councilors, and real world relationships never could. So, now I can’t tell her things, and I can’t share my world with her.
Some of me wishes I could go back to that time when I could share everything with my mother, but all of me knows that means going back to being “Broken”, “Flawed”, and “Incomplete”.
So, yes, some of me regrets joining Tumblr, cause my relationship with my mother is weakening. But the rest of me knows that, for the sake of my future and my happiness, I needed this site.
Thank you to everyone on this site for giving me this new peace in my heart. Because of you, I am whole.